Thursday, April 29, 2010

My Storm

Yesterday was weird.

The entire day I felt like there was a black cloud following me.

It wasn't hovering over me, but man, did it want to!

After we dropped Gerald off at the airport I went back to my house and slept for a bit. I felt like I could stay under those covers all day.

Partly because I didn't sleep the night before so I was tired, but mostly because my boyfriend was on a plane headed back to a dark place.

Once I did get out of bed I didn't want to talk to anyone. All I wanted to do was curl up, relax, drink a coffee and maybe read.
Preferably in a place like this...

Or this...

So I did.
I was feeling gloomy inside and it didn't help much that I was feeding off of the gloomy weather that was outside as well.

but I can't keep my curtains closed forever...

As pathetic as this may sound, I have been singing the song "Chiquitita" by ABBA as one way to help me keep that dark cloud from coming closer. Here's a snippet of it...
"Chiquitita, you and I cry
But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you
Let me hear you sing once more like you did before
Sing a new song, chiquitita."

I may be feeling like this...

...but the night is always coldest before the dawn...

...and the dawn is always coming.

God has kept G safe for 9 months and I pray He will bring him home in 3 more months, and that brightens my day.


As odd as it sounds I feel like I am now one with the storm of deployment yet still protected from it.

God has helped us to not get swept away by the deployment, but to not be ignorant or disregard it either.
He is our rock and strong tower, and is the only thing not only keeping our heads above water, but our bodies completely out of it.

"O Sovereign LORD, you have only begun to show your greatness and the strength of your hand to me, your servant. Is there any god in heaven or on earth who can perform such great and mighty deeds as you do?" --Deuteronomy 3:24

4 comments:

Aimee said...

I like the pictures.. and ABBA. I was watching their videos earlier today... if you ever want a good laugh, just watch their music videos. :)

Jan said...

xxxooo

Simon said...

what a lovely blog, great pics too, that final piece of scripture spoke to me too...

Debs said...

what beautiful and honest thoughts, it is so hard ebing away from those you love but we also have to beleive when God places us on that path, no matter how difficult the path may be He will always equip us to finish the journey, it is the destination that he never really reveals to us until he chooses to, we see a few cross stitches but only he sees the entire tapestry xxxxJer 29:11